I have this book called, A Diary of Private Prayer by John Baillie.
There are 31 days of prayers. A morning and an evening prayer
Here is day 27. The Evening Prayer:
I falter where I firmly trod,
And falling with my weight of cares
Upon the great world’s altar-stairs
That slope thro’ darkness up to God,
I stretch lame hands of faith, and grope….
Eternal God, who has been the hope and joy of many generations, and who in all ages hast given men the power to seek Thee and in seeking to find Thee, grant me, I pray Thee, a clearer vision of Thy truth, a greater faith in Thy power, and a more confident assurance of Thy love.
When the way seems dark before me, give me grace to walk trustingly:
When much is obscure to me, let me be all the more faithful to the little that I can clearly see:
When the distant scene is clouded, let me rejoice that at least the next step is plain:
When what Thou art is most hidden from my eyes, let me still hold fast to what Thou dost command:
When insight falters, let obedience stand firm:
What I lack in faith let me repay in love.
O infinite God, the brightness of whose face is often shrouded from my mortal gaze, I thank Thee that Thou didst send Thy Son Jesus Christ to be a light in a dark world. O Christ, Thou Light of Light, I thank Thee that in Thy most holy life Thou didst pierce the eternal mystery as with a great shaft of heavenly light, so that in seeing Thee we see Him whom no man hath seen at any time.
And if still I cannot find Thee, O God, then let me search my hear and know whether it is not rather I who am blind than Thou who art obscure, and I who am fleeing form Thee rather than Thou from me; and let me confess these my sins before Thee and seek Thy pardon in Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen.
Allow it to not just be words that you speak with your mouth, but meditations that linger in your heart.
